Favorite Quotations

I have this habit of collecting quotes. My collection contains any quote (by someone famous or just another lay person) that inspired me in some way. This habit started when I was struggling with some personal demons and was looking for the light at the end of the tunnel.

Have no xpectations in life so when something good comes along it will b a nice surprise


Your future is so bright tht it burns my eyes

Nothing great can come to your life until you learn to appreciate what you already have

You were born an original, don't die a copy

Only when you start to see pain in life as a blessing that when you can help someone else from what you have learned from it

If you want something bad enough, the universe will conspire to give it to you

Evaporate tall person

Who said money can’t buy you happiness, that person just didn’t know where to shop!

Growing old is inevitable. Growing up is optional

If God got you to it, he will put you through it

Live the life you love. Love the life you live

When the power of love overcomes the love for power, the world will know peace

I have le...arnt how to live...How to be in the world and of the world, and not just to stand aside and watch. And i will never, never again run away from life. Or from love, either -- Audrey Hepburn in Sabrina


That which does not kill us makes us stronger-- Friedrich Nietzsche

If you obey all the rules you miss all the fun -- Katharina Hupburn

You are only as young as the last time you changed your mind-- Timothy Leary

Distance makes the heart grow fonder

It has been said that time heals all wounds. I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue, and the pain lessens, but it is never gone -- Rose Kennedy

I choose my friends for their good looks, my acquaintances for their good characters, and my enemies for their good intellects -- Oscar Wilde

Tragedy is a tool for the living to gain wisdom, not a guide by which to live -- Robert Kennedy

When I think of you and me and what we shared, I know it would be easy for others to dismiss our time together as simply a by-product of the days and nights we spent by the sea, a "fling" that, in the long run, would mean absolutely nothing. Thats why I don't tell people about us. They wouldn't understand, and I don't feel the need to explain, simply becasue I know in my heart how real it was... how real this is. -- Dear John

An insincere and evil friend is more to be feared than a wild beast; a wild beast may wound your body, but an evil friend will wound your mind. -Guatama Buddha

I believe that the very purpose of life is to be happy... In my own limited experience I have found that the more we care for the happiness of others, the greater is our own sense of well-being... It is the principal source of success in life. Since we are not solely material creatures, it is a mistake to place all our hopes for happiness on external development alone. The key is to develop inner peace -Dalai Lama

Intelligent people talk about ideas, average people talk about things, small people talk about other people

Well behaved women rarely make history

Art is what you can get away with

A women without a man is like a fish without a bicycle

If you fool around with a thing for a very long, you will screw it up -- Murphy's law

Beauty is only skin deep, but ugly goes to the bone -- Murphy's law

Anything that can go wrong, will go wrong -- Murphy's law

In disagrement with loved ones, deal only with the current situation, don't bring up the past -- Dalai Lama

Follow the three r: respect for self, respect for the other; and responsibility for all your actions -- Dalai Lama

For you, a thousand times over...

If you put a small value on yourself, rest assured that the world will not raise your price.

It's not the end unless it's a happy ending.

No smile is as beautiful as the one that struggles through the tears

Be happy, and fuck the rest.

Three things in life that, once gone, never come back -

1. Time
2. Words
3. Opportunity

Three things in life that can destroy a person -
1. Anger
2. Pride
3. Unforgiveness

Three things in life that you should never lose-
1. Hope
2. Peace
3. Honesty

Three things in life that are most valuable -
1. Love
2. Family & Friends
3. Kindness

Three things in life that are never certain -
1. Fortune
2. Success
3. Dreams

Three things that make a person -
1. Commitment
2. Sincerity
3. Hard work

The human voice can never reach the distance that is covered by the still small voice of conscience -->Mohandas Gandhi

Love is patient and kind; Love is not jealous or boastful; it is not arrogant or rude. Love does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrong, but rejoices in the right. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. -- 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

To Twinkle, you must Burn Occassionally.


Power Concedes Nothing without a Demand.

Only Boring People Get Bored.

Don't let someone stupidness stop you from living your life to your fullest potential

Do you know where nice people end up? They end up on welfare!-Kelly Cutrone

You have to be prepared for people to hate you. --Kelly Cutrone

Average people love being average because everyone loves them --> Kelly Cutrone

GRADitude 2010

So I am really getting into this whole blogging thing. Makes me wonder why I did not start it sooner. My life after undergraduate has been nothing but fun. Eating, sleeping, hang out and few interviews here and there, and lastly trying to stay active!

Last night was GRADitude 2010. It was a “party” thrown by the York University’s Alumni’s office. It was meant for the 2010 graduates to mingle and make connection. Beside the free drinks and free food, I paid 8$ in parking just to see my friends.

The whole notion of networking did not work. The environment did not make it possible to network. I already knew the entire Alumni’s present there from York. How about getting some big and popular York Alumin’s like Dan Levy or Jay Manuel? Some girl missed the whole “cocktail attire” part of the invitation (Prichila Kirubakaran noticed) and wore a maxi dress. Not enough places to sit. Music sucked big time. Maybe a photo booth not a weird video flip book? And there were more pictures of Antony Permesurdin and Abbas Musaji (not graduating this year) on the slide show than of Prichila, Feena Sattaur, and me.

For a while Feena and I thought that the Alumni’s office was creeping through our Facebook account but it was Prichila who sent in those pictures.

But good food. Very Canadian with a poutine station. Signature drink – the red lion – I hated it! And endless supply for finger food. AMAZING and very cute cupcakes.

Over all, it was a good but next year is going to better and BIGGER.

I did get to meet many people whom I did not say proper goods byes too (my many acquaintances at York). So that was a good thing.

But most importantly cupcakes were amazing.

Enjoy the pictures. We all managed to wear black (no planning) and we a very good looking group.

Life after undergrad

So I’m finally done with my undergraduate degree. Life after my exams has been nothing but slow. This is the first time in my 5 years I did not enrol in summer courses. Feels weird knowing that I am not going back to school next week but I am moving forward in life. Now I am looking for a job that does not require me to sign a year contract. I know I have experience working from a camp counsellor to a team lead but I am not looking for a year contract. BECAUSE I AM GOING TO GRAD SCHOOL!

This year as a whole has been full of anxiety attacks. First anxiety attack was deciding which graduate schools I am going to apply (finally got that list finalized over the summer --> especial thanks goes to Rotbah, Natalia, Salma, and Sean; best advice I got --> don’t limit your life and your opportunity to go to grad school because of an idiot). The next anxiety attack was submitting a petition with York U to drop some of my courses from my transcript; but it was accepted and the registers office for once was kind enough to drop two my courses. Third anxiety attack was when I saw my GRE score. Not what I was hoping for. Forth anxiety attack was asking for references from my professors and trying to meet the deadline. But all these anxiety attacks paid off when I got an email in mid-November from the University of Texas – Dallas registers office that I have been accepted to the MA Interdisciplinary Program. I did not believe it when I opened that email. But as soon saw my online student profile and confirmed that I was really accepted (with my average GPA and Okay GRE scores) – I think everyone at the second floor Scott Library knew it.

However, once I was back in January, I think my brain started to tune down. I just wanted to get over school. But I survived the last three months of school and now I am too scared to move.

So moving to Dallas, Texas will be very in interesting. I don’t know a single soul in that city. But I have moved a zillion times in my life. This is the longest I have lived in one country. This July 17th it will be 8 years. Don’t get me wrong, Toronto is my home but I really need to stretch my legs, especially from York U. In the past 5 years, I have not only studied in that school but also worked and met some amazing people. One thing is for sure, with my overfull course loads in the last two years, Multicultural Week was one thing that kept me sane. During this week, I get to be creative, be in charge, and boss everyone around.

But now I am trying to figure out my life. Do I really want to do a MA in Interdisciplinary Studies? Or should I wait to hear from MA International Political Economy? Or what if I get accepted in the MA in International Public Policy at Wilfrid Laurie? If know me, you know I would rather do my MA in Int. Public Policy than Interdisciplinary Studies. But can I live in Waterloo? I don’t think they even have a Starbucks there. I am not a small city girl. And what will I do after I finish my two years MA program? Move to west-cost like I always wanted? Stright into a PhD program? Work for some big international agency? Yes you have guessed it right --> another anxiety attack.

Moving to Dallas will be a good and big change but I need to find my focus. I think it’s time for me to grow up and start living a life with only one focus (boring). Really decide what I want to do for the rest of life. After all I will be two decades and a half years old this summer. And the scary part is two people whom I know directly are going to get married this year. Me still enjoys watching the Family channel. Growing old is inevitable. Growing up is optional. But I am not a trust fund baby, which makes this summer the last summer I get to be a child.

So far, summer has been great with nothing to do. But I do miss my best friend. Summer was the time, when we had regular sushi lunches at Crispy Rolls (we have tired everything on the menu), than either going off to Jackasstors or the Red Room to get drunk. And the endless supplies of hot waiters (aka sweetyboparas) did not hurt either. Always ending our nights with drunken singing of old school Bollywood song through downtown Toronto before going to Starbucks for a Grande white mocha Americano misto.

Let see what my next step in life brings me. But this is especial thanks to everyone (who know who guys are) at York U who made my last year amazing. You guys will be missed dearly.  

Disability in slasher film

This blog is dedicated to Rotbah Nitia. You suck for leaving me for a third world country.

As many of you already know I had written a very interesting paper on how disability is portrayed in horror movies. My famous evil monster for this long as 5000 words essay was Jason Voorhees and Freddy Kruger. If you don’t know who these people are you must have been living under a rock for the last 30 years.

Well writing this essay was very interesting. I had an extremely hard time finding any proper academic article that backed up my hypothesis that how these villains are portrayed have an effect on the lay person on how they view a disable person. So anyone doing any interested in a MA or a PhD disability topic  this can be the direction you can be going at.

History teaches us that our society have views people with any sort of disability as being in a disadvantage position. I believe that still today popular culture views disabled individuals as “tragic”, “broken”, “inferior”, and worst as a “monster”. By viewing people with disability as tragic, broken, inferior, and as monsters, we tend to separate our society and give them the label of the “others”. We give them the label of being the others is because of our inability to relate to someone or something we perceive as radically, insurmountably different from ourselves. Most of us have trouble knowing how to react to someone who behaves strangely, or whose behaviour or ideas scare us. We say, "He's out of his mind,""He's lost his mind," or "He's acting crazy" (Kaufman, 2008). This concept of the other serves a purpose, which is to assure us that we are nothing like them and even fear them.

The concept and this fear of the “other” have handed over an ideology that horror film maker are exploiting. This ideology of the others results into horror movie villains that are physically or mentally disabled. Before understanding how disability is used and abused by film makers, it is important to understand some of the common characteristics all slasher films have which makes the general public stereotype disable able people and fear them fear (Kaufman, 2008). In addition, I will be explaining why film-makers continue to abuse this ideology beside the obvious fact that slasher films are big-money makers.

Slasher films are a sub-genre of the horror films that involves a psychopathic killer, stalking, and killing a sequence of victims in a violent manner. This killing often involves the use of cutting tool such as a chainsaw or scythe (Kaufman, 2008). The physically or mentally disabled villain is better known as the indestructible “the monster” in slasher horror movies.

First is the important role of the killer. The killer is also commonly known as the other. The killer is usually male, and his identity is often, but not always, unknown and/or concealed either by a mask. It is very common in slasher movies that the killer is mute and seemingly unstoppable, able to withstand stabbings, falls and shootings by his victims. Being mute is a common disability and it is very likely that the general public will stereotype any mute person as a horrific killer (Dika, 1990).

The killer have always suffered from some sort of childhood trauma (that caused some sort psychological disability). Because type of trauma determines the killers’ choice of victims, weapon and location (the killer can be made out to be pitiable or understood). (Jason was wanted to desperately want to make his mother happy and Freddy is looking for revenge). Slasher villains tend to prefer hand held weapons such as knives, axes, hatchetes, and chainsaws as opposed to bombs or guns. Freddy Krueger, Jason Voorhees and Michael Myers are notable examples of this type of killers (Dika, 1990). This killer character is also commonly known as the character of the “other”. I will further explain below how this character is formulated by slasher film maker and how disability is used to form this character (Dika, 1990).

The violence is one thing that separates slasher films from thrillers and murder mysteries. Slashers deemphasize plot and character development in favour of violence and terror. Plots are constructed around giving the audience the experience of watching the killer murders. The deaths are often violent and graphic, with originality being valued in the later films to hold audience interest (Dika, 1990).

Halloween was the first slash film that first to introduce the concept of an indestructible evil force. Halloween is claimed to be responsible for the rise of the slasher trend, popularizing many of what would become key elements in the genre (Rockoff, 2002, & http://www.popcornpictures.co.uk/ffilms/friday13.shtml).

The slasher genre arguably peaked in 1983, when nearly 60% of all box-office takings were for slasher movies. During the peck of slasher movies the audience interest was maintained by developing new, graphic and realistic special effects. Some slasher movies series, such as A Nightmare on Elm Street, have added the supernatural twists to the formula, as well as comedic elements as the respective series progressed (Bracke, 2005). Movies, such as Halloween, A Nightmare on Elm Street, and Friday the 13, are concepts that were created almost thirty years ago but the same concept is being recycled in now. The same villains are still on our movie screens and using the same characters of slasher films. Yet, they still break box-office records. These villains are important money makers in the film industry.

In this franchise we see a more of a focus on returning villain than on surviving victims. Some of the common returning villains are Leatherface, Freddy Krueger, Jason Voorgees, Michael Myers, and Chucky. All of these villains are now recognizable American pop culture icons. This money making machine, abuses the idea of being disable and not care what affect they have on stereotyping disabilities.

In slasher movies, villain characters Leatherface, Freddy Krueger, Jason Voorgees, and Michael Myers is also labeled as the other. Because these villains do not have any supernatural powers but yet feared by all. Social research tells us that most of us views people who are mentally ill or physically disable as being extremely different from us. That is why we label them as the “other”. Concept of the other is the inability to relate to someone or something we perceive as radically, insurmountably different from ourselves. Most of us have trouble knowing how to react to someone who behaves strangely, or whose behaviour or ideas scare us. We say, "He's out of his mind,""He's lost his mind," or "He's acting crazy" (Kaufman, 2008). This concept of the other serves a purpose, which is to assure us that we are nothing like them.

This other character is also commonly known as the indestructible monster because they cannot control their behaviour. The word monster originally describes people with congenital impairment. As departure from the normatively human, monsters were seen as category violation or grotesques hybrids (Kaufman, 2008).

So why these character of the other or the monster is being used in horror movies? Horror movies on supernatural beings all begin with the assumption that the real world is governed by "natural law" and every one of us live according to this belief. The foundation of any horror movie is that this natural law is somehow violated. In non-supernatural horror movies, also known as the slasher movies have two autonomous categories that violate this natural law (Weaver & Tamborini, 2005).

First category is called the pseudonatural. In this category the natural law is violated because of an abnormal state of mind, mental disability. The second category is called the conte-cruel. In this category the natural law is violated through inhuman viciousness. Usually slasher films consist of both of these categories and villains are mainly motivated through rage or revenge and are mass murders, which kill for the reason for killing (Weaver & Tamborini, 2005).

In slasher movies, the villain who achieves monster status is viewed not to be human any more or even worth saving. As mentioned above, the villains from slasher movies is suffering from psychosis or Dissociative Identity Disorder or suffer from physical disabilities, instead of being demonically possessed (Kaufman, 2008). And being different from others because of physical or mental disability violets the natural law.

Not only slahser movies also manage to blur the line between reality and fiction. It is very common for us to encounter with someone who is physically or mentally disable. It may be also normal to encounter someone who full rage and wants revenge. It is not pragmatic at all to encounter someone who has supernatural power, for example an evil witch or wizard. This makes the character of villains in slasher movies very realistic. As a result when someone is watching slasher films, one realizes that these villain are different the accepted norm of human beings and violates the natural law but not because of supernatural powers, but because of some sort of disability (Weaver & Tamborini, 2005). You are more likely to bump into a disable person than someone who is a witch.

By making the characters very realistic, it results into uncertain threat to existential nature and the fear of potential aftermath when faced with these characters (which are approaching danger that could result in death) among able bodies. This further segregates our society into us and the others, and deepens our fear of being different (in this case being disabled) (Weaver & Tamborini, 2005).

Many slahser villains/monsters are both mentally ill and physically disabled. There are two reasons why mental illness and physical disabled is placed together to create the monster. First, mental illness can be perceived by many of us as something to be scared of. Second, the average person finds it much easier to connect "sociopath" with "monster" than to accept that circumstances contributed to that person's behaviour (Kaufman, 2008). That is why horror filmmakers can abuse these fears and understanding to their advantage to create such monsters for their movies.

In stories about demonic possession, the demon (rather than the person) is responsible for the horrific acts that are committed. Moreover, when the demon is exorcised, the person receives no punishment and he or she resumes a normal life (Kaufman, 2008). On the other hand, horror stories about mentally ill person, the person is punished for the horrific acts that are committed and he or she never resumes to normal life. These story usual ends when this monster is admitted at a mental asylum. These stories just add more fuels into out fear of the other, that mentally ill person can never be “cured”. He or she has to lock up in mental asylum (Kaufman, 2008).

Result of a survey done in the US among horror movie lover (both sex and ages from 16 to 91) showed that the number one favourite horror monster of all time is Freddy Kreuger because of his killing inclinations (Jason Voorhees was a close second). Not only that, the survey takers answer the reason Freddy is their favourite monster is because he is the most “realistic” monster (Fischoff, 2005). Majority of the survey taker have stated that they are scared of being attacked by someone who looks like Freddy Krueger. Freddy was a child molester who was burned alive by the parents of Springwood (the city he is from). As a result, his skin is burned and scared, and he has no hair on his head.

Child molesters and burned victims are both represent in our society. These realistic characteristics are the reason why the younger generation of viewers prefers villains who are physically or mentally disable. The survey results show the reason for this because they can related to the situation on screen which resulted into making monsters like Freddy, Jason and Leather-Face very popular. Whereas, it is hard to mentally connect old monsters, such as Frankenstein, to be realistic or as a psychopath. Horror film makers intentions is to please the audiences’ demand, even if it means to abuses mental and physical disability features to create these realistic horror monster, which further segregate our society as able and disable bodies (Fischoff, 2005).

This public demand result into film makers drawing their inspiration of horror film villains from people they know or knew who were mentally or physically disabled. One big example of this was when characteristics of our second favourite horror movie villain, Jason Voorhees, were being brain-stormed. Jason Voorhees is the fictional character indestructible monster from the Friday the 13th slahser series that first appeared in Friday the 13th (1980), as the son of camp cook-turned-murderer Mrs. Voorhees. He was not originally intended to be the main villain. But his success of scaring people have lead to him appearing various other media, including novels, comic books, and a cross-over film with another iconic horror film character, Freddy Krueger. Friday the 13th consists of twelve slasher films, a television show, novels, comic books, and tie-in merchandise. The first film was created to cash in on the success of Halloween (1978). But its success led Paramount Pictures to purchase the full licensing rights to the Friday the 13th franchise. This shows much money was made from just one masked character. Jason’s mask is a very popular icon in the western culture (Crale, 2002).

The creation of this monster was ideas combined by Victor Miller, Ron Kurz, and Tom Savini. Even the last name of this character, "Voorhees", was inspired by a girl that Miller knew at high school, whose last name was Voorhees. He chose this name because it gave him a creepy feeling every time he heard it, which was perfect for Jason (Grove, 2005, P.50). Nothing about this character was meant to make you feel safe.

From the book, Making Friday the 13th: The Legend of Camp Blood, we learn that writer Victor Miller initially wrote the Jason Voorhees character to be a normal looking child. Miller explained in his script that Jason did not look like the “creature from the "Black Lagoon". He was a mentally disabled young boy who was also a non-verbal, indestructible, and machete-wielding mass murderer (Grove, 2005, pp.55). Before he died, Jason was a special needs child who required a lot of attention and bullied by others. He was supposed to be silent, expressionless and have a blank stare. It was Savini who made Jason deformed and Kurz wanted to turn Jason into a "mongoloid creature", and have him "jump out of the lake at the end of the film”. He turned into a "formidable, unstoppable monster." By 2009, Fuller and Form contend that they did not want to make Jason too sympathetic to the audience. As Brad Fuller explains, "We do not want him to be sympathetic. Jason is not a comedic character, he is not sympathetic. He's a killing machine “Plain and simple" (Grove, 2005, pp. 57 & Bracke, 2006, pp.50).

Another survey conducted by California State University's Media Psychology Lab surveyed 1,166 people Americans aged from 16 to 91 on the psychological appeal of movie monsters. Many of the characteristics associated with Jason Voorhees were appealing to the participants. That is because Jason’s disabilities are very realistic. Majority of the participants knew someone who is mute or them themselves or know someone who wants to desperately want to please their mother (explained below). In the survey, Jason was considered to be an "unstoppable killing machine." (Fischoff, 2005). Participants were impressed by the "cornicopic feats of slicing and dicing a seemingly endless number of adolescents and the occasional adult." Out of the ten monsters used in the survey—which included Vampires, Freddy Krueger, Frankenstein's monster, Michael Myers, Godzilla, Chucky, Hannibal Lecter, King Kong, and the Alien—Jason scored the highest in all the categories involving killing variables. Further characteristics that appealed to the participants included Jason's "immortality, his apparent enjoyment of killing [and] his superhuman strength." (Fischoff, 2005).

Jason’s motivation for killing is to please his mother. If you have watched the movie, you would learn that his mother desperately wanted to get revenge from the camp counselors that caused Jason’s death. Jason has come back from the death to please his mother’s wish and wants her attention. His motivation is best described by Kirzinger "psychotic mama's boy gone horribly awry...Very resilient. You can't kill him, but he feels pain, just not like everyone else." Kirzinger goes on to say that Jason is a "psycho-savant", and believes his actions are based on pleasing his mother, and not anything person (Grove, 2005, pp. 221-222).

One of the sense, (Alice is attacked in a canoe by Jason, and then she wakes up in a hospital bed) was written especially after Jason’s character was physically deformed. In this sense, Jason pop out of the lake would be psychologically disturbing to the audience, and since Alice is supposed to be dreaming, the crew could get away with adding anything they wanted (Bracke 2006, pp. 36).

As you can see the when the characteristics of the villain were being brained-stormed, Miller already knew that Jason was going to be mentally disable. Jason is different from the rest of us because of his mental disability. Hence, we have no problem labelling him as the other or the “monster”. Not only that, Miller fuelled our fear of the other by making Jason an indestructible mass-murder. Miller also did not want any sequel of this character. He argues that producers have they made Jason the villain. Miller believes the best part of his screenplay was that it was about a mother avenging the senseless death of her son. Miller stated, "Jason was dead from the very beginning; he was a victim, not a villain” (http://www.victormiller.com/faq/index.html#q11). It again shows that producers only want to make money not caring much about how it may change the concept of the original character.

Being only mentally ill indestructible mass-murder was not scary enough from the producers of the movie. That is why the crew of the film felt that Jason’s should be physically deformed. Tom Savini (makeup artist) got his inspiration for Jason’s physical features from someone he knew as a child. The person whom he knew as a child had a disfigured face, whose eyes and ear did not line up straight. Originally, Jason was supposed to have hair, but Savini and his crew decided to make him bald. This way Jason could have a dome-shaped head, which made him look like a "hydrocephalic, mongoloid pinhead". The make-up crew was very proud of this creating of this iconic monster. As you can see, the make crew got All their inspiration for Jason’s physical appearance was from someone who was physically different from the accepted norm. This was how the famous monster Jason Voorhees was made and his creators were very proud when he jumped out of the lake at the end of the film and left the audience psychologically disturbed (Bracke, 2006).

Another very well-know slasher monster is Freddy Krueger, from the slasher series, A Nightmate on Elme Street. Freddy is commonly known as a disfigure monster with an emotional story. If you have seen the movies, you would learn that Freddy was born out of the result of rape. His mother, who worked in a mental asylum (that holds all the criminally insane), was raped by the patients. His mother has given him up for adopting, but Freddy was adopted by an abusive family with an alcoholic father. This is what caused Freddy to have a traumatic childhood and exhibit sociopathic behaviour and antisocial personality disorder. Not only that at school, he was called “son of a hundred maniacs” – essentially mockery. Despite all this, Freddy tried to live a normal life but he ended up becoming a child molester. The parents of these children burned Freddy alive after he was realised from jail. From the night of his death, Freddy returns in the dreams of his victims – the victims being the children of the parents who torched his house. He uses his comedic personality traits to draw them in and keep them scared, while slowly torturing them, whether it would be by their own psychological fears or physical pain (Jorgensen, 2009).

Freddy is a burned victim with a traumatic childhood. Jason was a special needs child, who died to because negligence of camp counsellors. Both are physically and mental disabled. These types of movies definitely create a fear among our society.

It is not to forget that fear is a natural human response and has been experience by each one of us at some point of time in our lives. But how disability is portrayed in slasher films, results into fear that basically arises out of distrust of people or situation. The concept of distrust portrayed in salsher films is the lack of belief but it is actually a sense of uneasiness borne out of the feeling that something might go wrong at an unknown point of time. This sometime makes one reach pre-emptively, which means that one changes one's behaviour too drastically and too suddenly (Grant, N.D.).

Another form of fear is called terror, a fear of extreme kind. Terror is the central of all slasher films. When someone is struck by terror the chemical response in the brain prevents the person from making a rational decision, and therefore, reacts without thinking in panic. It is possible that a person's response might be far greater than what the situation demands. In other words, the person might overreact in panic (Grant, N.D.. All slasher film has scene where a victim is chased by the disable “monster” and the victim reacts by in trying to kill the monster.

Fear actually is not all that bad because it is our natural biological response to the situations that may endanger life. If it were not there, we would be far more inclined to put others and ourselves in danger. But excess of everything is bad; so when fear is excessive, it becomes a disability (Grant, N.D.).

This fear does sometimes create an awkward gap between able and disable bodies. Many can argue that our society creates this awkward and not what is portrayed in slasher films which builds a fear among able bodies on people with obvious disability. It does not matter what creates this awkward gap. But this gap is caused by many different emotional and psychological factors. A diplomatic and accept answer to this question is that some able-bodied people have difficulty facing a disabled person because it puts a clear reminder in their face that they could become disabled one day. But I believe it also could be the fear that the disable person can be mass murder as portrayed in slasher movies. Whatever the fact is, none of us would rather not face or openly admit it. But what is the result is that able bodies act weird around disable bodies. This further deepens the gap in our society and creates discrimination against disable people (also known as ableism) (http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/ableism).

The stereotypes portrayed in slasher movies are that persons with disabilities are deformed individuals who may also be horrible deviants. For example, the slasher movie such as the Nightmare on Elm Street series show a villain who was turned into a hateful, sadistic killer because of disfigurement resulting from a fire. Not only that, in non-slasher films, such as the Batman have villains that are disabled: such as the Joker who was disable after failing into a vat of acid; the Penguin who was born with flippers instead of arms. Disability right advocates argue that this type of images on disability does not have a positive effect on the disable community. This leads into fear of disable person which can result into lack of employment opportunities for the disable community. Employment is directly correlated with poverty (Kendall, pg. 494).

When doing research for this essay, I realized that no one ever has asked the question, how it affects an ordinary able person when disability is portrayed such a horrific way. No one openly wants to admit that they fear a disable person when because of Jason or Michael. From all the survey conducted, the most common answer was that people admitting that they like slasher villains because they are realist. You are more likely to see someone who is mute or have burn scares than to dump into someone who is a werewolf. But I am sure if further research is done on this topic (fear a disable person because of what is portrayed in slasher films) there will be a lot of people admitting that how disability is portrayed in slahser films have affected how they view a disable person.

In conclusion, slasher movie makers will continue to abuse disabilities to make money. More research needs to be done on what affect these slasher movies have on people when viewing someone with disability. As long as Jason and Freddy continues to be a popular cultural icon, able bodies will continue to have unrealistic fear on disable able people.

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robert pattinson

Okay so if you have ever used my beautiful pink laptop, you would know that I’m in love with Robert (Bob) Pattinson. But I think the world should know something very important when I fell in love with Bob. I fell in love with when I saw him fall from the tree in: Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix, as Cedric Diggory. I was in love with him before this whole lame Twilight mania started. I think Twilight is very poorly written. The book is meant to be read by amateur readers. I couldn’t even get pass chapter one. So if you haven’t ever read a big book, pick it up and be proud!


So to make it clear, I only watch the Twilight Saga for Bob. Not because I like Twilight. I am proud and out Harry Potter fan. I guess when Voldi killed Cedric with the Avada Kedavra spell it turned him into a hot vampire and transported him to Forks, Washington! Good job Voldi.

Studying at Vanier

So I'm sitting here, trying to study on Nuclear India, with Antony, Abbas, Feena and Safiya. And we are talking about racoon sex in Antony’s attic, how Safiyah buried an animal and flying cockroaches.
And some random guy just came and started to talk to us. He has befriended Antony on facebook.
Now I'm talking to zaian isn't to finishing my essay on Nuclear India.

U.S. Healthcare -- my views

So last night, when I was enjoying a nice episode of Gossip Girl, my sister comes in my room and tells me that American now have free healthcare. So what do I think about it? I think change has finally come. Good for the American but bad for Canadians. As I talked to some of my American friends I realized either they love it or really hate it. If they hate it, it is only because taxes are going to go up. The economy is going to gain more deficits. Over all not pleased with Obama. They don’t seem to care about the well-being of the poor. It just shows how ignorant a community can be.


As you may already know or not know, US is only developed country in the world that does not have any free healthcare. All developed countries have adopted a universal healthcare system after WWII, around the 1946 (same time as Canada). In England, right after war when both the economically and physically devastated, the country adopted the National Health Service. Why? Because healthy nation will equal to a nation willing to work. It is one less thing people have to worry about. But still I mean the most powerful country in the world has people dieing because they can’t afford to go to the doctor.

Canada faced the same criticism when universal health care act was approved. In 1946, Tommy Douglas' Co-operative Commonwealth Federation government in Saskatchewan passed the Saskatchewan Hospitalization Act, which guaranteed free hospital care for much of the population. One man did actually change the Canadian healthcare system. It was one thing that made Canada BETTER than the U.S.

What affect the new free-healthcare in US may have on the Canadian health-care system? MANY. I remember 4 years ago, there were a lot of talks about starting to privatize the Canadian healthcare system. It was when our current Conservative government came into power. It was the hot topic in my Health Studies classes. But as soon as the US candidacy round began, the whole notion of privatizing the Canadian healthcare disappeared.

Why you ask? Because, we, “the neighbors up in the north” became a prime example in the both Clinton’s and Obama’s speech. I think for the first time, the US wanted to be more like Canada.

If the US adopts the Canadian healthcare system structure, it is time that our healthcare structure should make some changes. If you have taken any Canadian health policy classes, you will learn that Canada have amazing ideas on how to make healthcare system better. But we never end up adopting them. It is being adopted by UK. The only reason why the Canadian Health Minister was too scared to implement their own ideas because it will jeopardize our relationship with the US (when Bush was in power). Because the changes in the healthcare system would mean less privatizing and more government control. We did not change our healthcare system and instead delisted many services so we become more like America but yet have some Canadian values (60% is being subsidized by the government).

But now, we see that the American wants to be more like us. It’s time the Canadian healthcare system adopts its own ideas and become more like UK’s healthcare system. It means our taxes may also go up. But hey, it will better for the whole nation. It means free eye-check up and dental!

Overall my view on this topic  one thing that made us different from the Americans is now not there anymore. BUT we still have hockey and maple syrup. LOVE CANADA.

The dairy of social butterfly

So if you have seen in the last two days, I carried around a very pink book. Everyone thought I was reading for pleasure. Seriously guys? Now? Many of you asked me what this book is about..so here is something for you guys.. And Aimen was very happy to see the world Pakistan on the cover.
But this book is about how ignorant people can be. This book is written by Moni Mohsin, and Fools of the world is her theme.

The main character, Buttterfly, is an amply proportioned Begum with diamond studs the size of rupee coins and huge designer sunglasses was holding forth on her newly purchased shahtoosh. “Haan so I got this one yesterday only. It is seven also yards, na. I had two from before also but they were three yards only. So I thought, chalo, might as well get a big one also.”


In summary, Butterfly is a knuckle-brained socialite who has the unusual talent of delivering a bolt from the blue with her by-the-way shrewd, political comments. And malapropism is her forte and stock-in-trade. So the Kinnaird College-educated “sophisty, smart and socialist” lady sails through politically volatile times, right from 9/11 to Benazir Bhutto’s assassination, with her tittle-tattle and parties.


After reading this book, I realized that there are many ignorant fools in the world. And I have to learn how to deal with them. There is nothing wrong in wearing Prada shoes but make sure know what is going around you and the world.


In simple, this book is hilarious. Its written in Hindlish. Yes I said Hindlish. If you don't understand Hindi or Urdu guys, its a pretty hard book to read.

So what have i learned

NOTHING