Just an update

Hi y’all,

I know a post have been long due. That is because I was fighting with Google.

So what happened in the 10 months?

University of Texas at Dallas is a little less cool because I am still in Toronto. I have decided to put the whole graduate school thing on hold for another year. I think I am only one who will be writing a letter to the Dean of Admissions stating that I am respectfully declining my admission offer without another better offer to another university. The reason being, I like the privileges and comfort my parents’ give me, and I want to work/intern somewhere before applying back to graduate school. Make my resume stronger.

I finally went to Saudi Arabia and it wasn’t so bad. The flight to Jeddah killed me. I mean I was sleep deprived from exams and the sits was very uncomfortable. And on top that creepy uncle set next to me (what a surprise, I mean do a have track record for attracting creeps). But in Jeddah I did not feel any of that “restriction” nonsense. I mean I am not allowed to go anywhere alone or without a car in Bangladesh. It  was pretty much the same but only better cause guys did not try to grab your ass as you walk down the streets. Wearing a burka wasn’t that bad either. I mean I went with a mentality, when in Rome do what the Romans do.

Umrah was a life changing experience. It was extremely spiritual, and never felt so at peace both mentally and physical while I was at Mecca. Things that I only heard about or read in religion classes actually exist. Highly recommend it to anyone who has the chance.

My sister got a cat. Her name is kitty (Yes how creative! I was voting for Fanta, but NO!).  But Kitty is the most adorable thing is the whole world. Follows you everywhere you go, even into the washroom. If you don’t let her in, she just sits in front of the door and screams (AKA meowing) until you let her in. So I guess I am a cat lover now. If you really know me, you must have heard about my theory that I have a thing for guys who have cats (every single guy that I dated since 14 has/had a cat – don’t ask! Weird coincidence) a billion times. So I can’t categories them as crazy cat people anymore. Cause I am one of them now!

I did the 30 days photo challenge on Facebook and was the only one among my friends to finish it! It is a lot harder than it looks. Finding memories that is specific to thats task is very hard.

Found Moksha Yoga and LOVE IT!!!

Few of my friends got married. Yes I really don’t understand this phase or whatever. People are busy getting married and I am just busy planning my career.

Trying something new: coloured contacts.

Still love Rob Pattinson.

I don’t drink Starbucks coffee every day or coffee for that matter. Yes I know what I surprise! That is because it is very inconvenient for me to get it on my way to school now. So all the Yorkies who thought I am a coffee addict see I AM NOT!

I actually went to a sport game! Yes me! Who doesn’t understand anything! Baseball, tennis, and basketball! But hey, it’s a great conversation starters with boys. "So please explain....."

Academic life still trumps social life. Still have been a lot kissing frogs. So let’s pray that both of this scenarios change this year. After all, it’s also a new decade.

Love love

Kiss kiss



Favorite Quotations

I have this habit of collecting quotes. My collection contains any quote (by someone famous or just another lay person) that inspired me in some way. This habit started when I was struggling with some personal demons and was looking for the light at the end of the tunnel.

Have no xpectations in life so when something good comes along it will b a nice surprise


Your future is so bright tht it burns my eyes

Nothing great can come to your life until you learn to appreciate what you already have

You were born an original, don't die a copy

Only when you start to see pain in life as a blessing that when you can help someone else from what you have learned from it

If you want something bad enough, the universe will conspire to give it to you

Evaporate tall person

Who said money can’t buy you happiness, that person just didn’t know where to shop!

Growing old is inevitable. Growing up is optional

If God got you to it, he will put you through it

Live the life you love. Love the life you live

When the power of love overcomes the love for power, the world will know peace

I have le...arnt how to live...How to be in the world and of the world, and not just to stand aside and watch. And i will never, never again run away from life. Or from love, either -- Audrey Hepburn in Sabrina


That which does not kill us makes us stronger-- Friedrich Nietzsche

If you obey all the rules you miss all the fun -- Katharina Hupburn

You are only as young as the last time you changed your mind-- Timothy Leary

Distance makes the heart grow fonder

It has been said that time heals all wounds. I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue, and the pain lessens, but it is never gone -- Rose Kennedy

I choose my friends for their good looks, my acquaintances for their good characters, and my enemies for their good intellects -- Oscar Wilde

Tragedy is a tool for the living to gain wisdom, not a guide by which to live -- Robert Kennedy

When I think of you and me and what we shared, I know it would be easy for others to dismiss our time together as simply a by-product of the days and nights we spent by the sea, a "fling" that, in the long run, would mean absolutely nothing. Thats why I don't tell people about us. They wouldn't understand, and I don't feel the need to explain, simply becasue I know in my heart how real it was... how real this is. -- Dear John

An insincere and evil friend is more to be feared than a wild beast; a wild beast may wound your body, but an evil friend will wound your mind. -Guatama Buddha

I believe that the very purpose of life is to be happy... In my own limited experience I have found that the more we care for the happiness of others, the greater is our own sense of well-being... It is the principal source of success in life. Since we are not solely material creatures, it is a mistake to place all our hopes for happiness on external development alone. The key is to develop inner peace -Dalai Lama

Intelligent people talk about ideas, average people talk about things, small people talk about other people

Well behaved women rarely make history

Art is what you can get away with

A women without a man is like a fish without a bicycle

If you fool around with a thing for a very long, you will screw it up -- Murphy's law

Beauty is only skin deep, but ugly goes to the bone -- Murphy's law

Anything that can go wrong, will go wrong -- Murphy's law

In disagrement with loved ones, deal only with the current situation, don't bring up the past -- Dalai Lama

Follow the three r: respect for self, respect for the other; and responsibility for all your actions -- Dalai Lama

For you, a thousand times over...

If you put a small value on yourself, rest assured that the world will not raise your price.

It's not the end unless it's a happy ending.

No smile is as beautiful as the one that struggles through the tears

Be happy, and fuck the rest.

Three things in life that, once gone, never come back -

1. Time
2. Words
3. Opportunity

Three things in life that can destroy a person -
1. Anger
2. Pride
3. Unforgiveness

Three things in life that you should never lose-
1. Hope
2. Peace
3. Honesty

Three things in life that are most valuable -
1. Love
2. Family & Friends
3. Kindness

Three things in life that are never certain -
1. Fortune
2. Success
3. Dreams

Three things that make a person -
1. Commitment
2. Sincerity
3. Hard work

The human voice can never reach the distance that is covered by the still small voice of conscience -->Mohandas Gandhi

Love is patient and kind; Love is not jealous or boastful; it is not arrogant or rude. Love does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrong, but rejoices in the right. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. -- 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

To Twinkle, you must Burn Occassionally.


Power Concedes Nothing without a Demand.

Only Boring People Get Bored.

Don't let someone stupidness stop you from living your life to your fullest potential

Do you know where nice people end up? They end up on welfare!-Kelly Cutrone

You have to be prepared for people to hate you. --Kelly Cutrone

Average people love being average because everyone loves them --> Kelly Cutrone

GRADitude 2010

So I am really getting into this whole blogging thing. Makes me wonder why I did not start it sooner. My life after undergraduate has been nothing but fun. Eating, sleeping, hang out and few interviews here and there, and lastly trying to stay active!

Last night was GRADitude 2010. It was a “party” thrown by the York University’s Alumni’s office. It was meant for the 2010 graduates to mingle and make connection. Beside the free drinks and free food, I paid 8$ in parking just to see my friends.

The whole notion of networking did not work. The environment did not make it possible to network. I already knew the entire Alumni’s present there from York. How about getting some big and popular York Alumin’s like Dan Levy or Jay Manuel? Some girl missed the whole “cocktail attire” part of the invitation (Prichila Kirubakaran noticed) and wore a maxi dress. Not enough places to sit. Music sucked big time. Maybe a photo booth not a weird video flip book? And there were more pictures of Antony Permesurdin and Abbas Musaji (not graduating this year) on the slide show than of Prichila, Feena Sattaur, and me.

For a while Feena and I thought that the Alumni’s office was creeping through our Facebook account but it was Prichila who sent in those pictures.

But good food. Very Canadian with a poutine station. Signature drink – the red lion – I hated it! And endless supply for finger food. AMAZING and very cute cupcakes.

Over all, it was a good but next year is going to better and BIGGER.

I did get to meet many people whom I did not say proper goods byes too (my many acquaintances at York). So that was a good thing.

But most importantly cupcakes were amazing.

Enjoy the pictures. We all managed to wear black (no planning) and we a very good looking group.

Life after undergrad

So I’m finally done with my undergraduate degree. Life after my exams has been nothing but slow. This is the first time in my 5 years I did not enrol in summer courses. Feels weird knowing that I am not going back to school next week but I am moving forward in life. Now I am looking for a job that does not require me to sign a year contract. I know I have experience working from a camp counsellor to a team lead but I am not looking for a year contract. BECAUSE I AM GOING TO GRAD SCHOOL!

This year as a whole has been full of anxiety attacks. First anxiety attack was deciding which graduate schools I am going to apply (finally got that list finalized over the summer --> especial thanks goes to Rotbah, Natalia, Salma, and Sean; best advice I got --> don’t limit your life and your opportunity to go to grad school because of an idiot). The next anxiety attack was submitting a petition with York U to drop some of my courses from my transcript; but it was accepted and the registers office for once was kind enough to drop two my courses. Third anxiety attack was when I saw my GRE score. Not what I was hoping for. Forth anxiety attack was asking for references from my professors and trying to meet the deadline. But all these anxiety attacks paid off when I got an email in mid-November from the University of Texas – Dallas registers office that I have been accepted to the MA Interdisciplinary Program. I did not believe it when I opened that email. But as soon saw my online student profile and confirmed that I was really accepted (with my average GPA and Okay GRE scores) – I think everyone at the second floor Scott Library knew it.

However, once I was back in January, I think my brain started to tune down. I just wanted to get over school. But I survived the last three months of school and now I am too scared to move.

So moving to Dallas, Texas will be very in interesting. I don’t know a single soul in that city. But I have moved a zillion times in my life. This is the longest I have lived in one country. This July 17th it will be 8 years. Don’t get me wrong, Toronto is my home but I really need to stretch my legs, especially from York U. In the past 5 years, I have not only studied in that school but also worked and met some amazing people. One thing is for sure, with my overfull course loads in the last two years, Multicultural Week was one thing that kept me sane. During this week, I get to be creative, be in charge, and boss everyone around.

But now I am trying to figure out my life. Do I really want to do a MA in Interdisciplinary Studies? Or should I wait to hear from MA International Political Economy? Or what if I get accepted in the MA in International Public Policy at Wilfrid Laurie? If know me, you know I would rather do my MA in Int. Public Policy than Interdisciplinary Studies. But can I live in Waterloo? I don’t think they even have a Starbucks there. I am not a small city girl. And what will I do after I finish my two years MA program? Move to west-cost like I always wanted? Stright into a PhD program? Work for some big international agency? Yes you have guessed it right --> another anxiety attack.

Moving to Dallas will be a good and big change but I need to find my focus. I think it’s time for me to grow up and start living a life with only one focus (boring). Really decide what I want to do for the rest of life. After all I will be two decades and a half years old this summer. And the scary part is two people whom I know directly are going to get married this year. Me still enjoys watching the Family channel. Growing old is inevitable. Growing up is optional. But I am not a trust fund baby, which makes this summer the last summer I get to be a child.

So far, summer has been great with nothing to do. But I do miss my best friend. Summer was the time, when we had regular sushi lunches at Crispy Rolls (we have tired everything on the menu), than either going off to Jackasstors or the Red Room to get drunk. And the endless supplies of hot waiters (aka sweetyboparas) did not hurt either. Always ending our nights with drunken singing of old school Bollywood song through downtown Toronto before going to Starbucks for a Grande white mocha Americano misto.

Let see what my next step in life brings me. But this is especial thanks to everyone (who know who guys are) at York U who made my last year amazing. You guys will be missed dearly.